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The story about me.

Sold

A few months ago I wrote that I had been “sold” by my company. I – and some of my colleagues – had to start in another firm. Of course it was a chock to get such news. And in the first days, we could only see all the negative things about this job change. After these first days, it began to settle. We got used to the idea, that within three months, we would be switching companies. The positive sides of the transfer started to push the negative thoughts away: With a new company come new possibilities.

I have now started in the new firm. I have been well received, and the receiving firm has made an effort to make me feel welcome. I have felt welcome, and I am glad to be where I am now.

Not everything is in place yet. But I am sure it will be.

2011 in retrospect

Yet another year has gone and as earlier years I will try to think back, with the assistance of this blog.

It is easy to say, that not much happened in 2011 – at least not to me.

I did not write so many blog posts. Not necessarily because I did not have anything to write about. I just did not write much. Okay – I really did not have much to write about.

2011 started with lots and lots of snow in Denmark. And it went on for months. We usually get snow in wintertime, but nothing like we saw in 2010 and 2011. At the time I am writing these words, it is winter again in Denmark, but until now, we almost haven’t seen any snow. That is a bit odd too.

For some time now, I have tried to make myself more the person I would like to be; tried to get rid of some of my worrying nature and to feel more ‘in sync’ with the world surrounding me. Some of that has been a bit of a success; other is still work in progress.

In February I helped one of my friends move to another apartment, but other than that, nothing really happened.

We did however have some stunning morning skies.

March and April could have been more special. Together with a good friend, I had planned to travel to Japan. The plan was to see some of the most fantastic parts of Japan. But few days before our planned trip, Japan was struck by a very large earthquake, leading to a massive tsunami, smashing parts of the country – including a nuclear plant. Since this disaster struck parts of our planned destinations, we had to cancel our trip. Instead we went to USA, where we rented a car and saw some of the states between D.C. and New Orleans.

May – June – July … what can I say? I did not have anything to write about then, and I still do not have anything to write. But then came October … … and still nothing to write about.

I had planned a vacation in late October, early September. Or at least I had planned the time for a vacation. But I could not get things to work my way, and ended up with just a short vacation – and just pure relaxation, not any travel. When I read back in my blog, it actually saddens me a bit, that I didn’t do more exciting things in 2011. Other than the US travel, I have spent most of my time working. And of course it is fine to have a work. In the ongoing tough economic times in most parts of the western world, it is positive to still have a job. But it would have been even better, if I had had more adventures in leisure.

Maybe 2012 will be better.

Tomato

It may not be a great secret, but I usually avoid starting a conversation by telling this, so even people who know me well might not know it: I really like tomatoes!

Besides sun dried tomatoes (which I really do not like) and pickled green tomatoes (which I can eat, but usually prefer not to), I like them all: Large beefsteak tomatoes, small cherry tomatoes, raw tomatoes, cooked tomatoes.

The best tomatoes are the ones who stay on the plant until they are red and eatable. Most tomatoes found in stores were picked while still green. They do not have the same taste as a freshly picked ripe tomato. But they are still good.

Fruit or vegetable? I say: both!

So now you know. 🙂

Reflections within

As written earlier, I have been working with things about me, I thought needed some improvements (and there is just so much potential for improvement in me).

One of the things, I have been addressing, is my worrying nature. I have been too good, worrying about things that never happened. And if they did happen, I worried about them once more.

I do believe I have improved greatly in that aspect. I do not worry so much anymore.

But after my holiday in The States, where large parts of the trip was driving out, without knowing exactly, where we would end up at the end of the day, I must admit to myself, that I still need to work with that.

All my holidays so far has been very planned. If more than one hotel has been part of the trip, I have usually known all the addresses, and the dates for arrival and departure.

But not this time … And I loved it! It was a fantastic way of travel. We did aim for specific cities when we drove out in the morning. So we got a little lost at times. But mostly we had not planned a time to be somewhere, so it was not possible to be late.

It wasn’t that hard for me to travel that way, so I have moved myself to a certain extent. But at times I was a little worried, when it started getting dark and we still hadn’t found a place to stay for the night. I still have some work to do there. 🙂

Why I travel?

Why I like to travel?

Out:
  New experiences
  Fantastic weather (often)
  Fun

Home:
  Work work work
  Bad weather (at this moment)
  High taxes

              Why do you ask?

                                                🙂

In sync

I haven’t written for some time, mostly because I haven’t had anything to write about – which I find to be an adequate reason.

I have had a feeling of not being entirely “in synchronization” with the rest of the world. It is hard to describe the feeling, so I haven’t written about it. I had some trouble figuring out, how to get in sync – and if I really wanted to. Lately I have become more in sync again. I don’t think I have done something to get there, it just happened.

I still need some kind of Life Manual, because half the time, I feel a little lost when it comes to do the things, other people are expecting me to do (the rest of the time, I am totally lost). But that is not new. I have lived all my life, without any concept of how to behave. As I understand these things, this is just the definition of being a guy, so I probably don’t need to worry. 😉

2010 in retrospect

Another year has gone, and once more it is time to look back. In my case: To look at the things I have written about in 2010.
I have not been busy, writing in 2010, so the retrospect is easy done.

2010 started with snow, and ended with snow. Throughout January, snow and cold weather was all I could write about.

By the start of February, I was really, really tired of snow. But still it came from above.
In February, I got another thing to write about: Finding my car on a train station, without license plates. Someone apparently wanted to drive in his car without paying the taxes, so he pinched my license plates instead of buying some. He was discovered few days later, but by then, I had bought new license plates for my car.

March came – and so did spring at last.

I did write some blog posts in April, but nothing noticeable.

In May, the winter was just a distant memory. Instead we got massive rain.

In June, it was summer in Denmark, finally. The kind of summer, where you can take ”postcard like” photos.

July was very hot! It was so hot, that I could not write about anything else.

August was a more normal Danish summer: Sun and rain. But still abnormal, because when it rained, it really poured down, and when the sun shined, it was so stunningly fantastic. No ordinary grey days, as I recall.

In September, I could write a few words about my trip to USA, where I went in the last days of August and beginning of September. It was my first trip to USA. I saw Washington, New York and a lot of security.

October came and went, with me just noticing the special date 10.10.10.

November had two events, I could write about. First I went on a small trip to the capital city of Germany: Berlin, where I had a fine time; though a bit cold and rainy.
Later the second event came: Snow! In winter time, we do get snow and cold weather in Denmark, but seldom so early.

December came; and with it, more snow and very cold weather.

That was it!

My life as a thistle seed

 

While I was out taking a walk, I was greeted by flying thistle seeds. I came to think of my time in high school, where the Principal compared us students with thistle seeds, which fly out in the world. Some fly far away, others only short, but hopefully the seeds lands in a place where it can take root.
I wondered how far I had flown since then, and whether I had landed in the right place.

Worrying status

As promised: A status on my quest to improve myself. If you find it particularly tedious to read about touchy feeling stuff, then Now would be a good time to stop reading!

In earlier blog posts (this and that), I told about one of the things, I wanted to change about myself: the ability to worry about things that never happens.

There are still times when I start to worry about things that haven’t happened yet. But mostly I am able to discover an upcoming worry and – more or less – nip it in the bud. 🙂 Often I go through entire days without starting to worry at all.

There is still room for improvement though. And I am still very good at panicking when things start to rumble. Something I really have to focus more on.

Heading for perfection

I really hope this doesn’t sound like mindless nonsense!

I’m a perfectionist! You may think I’m bragging, but think again: When it is impossible to reach perfection, and you try anyway, you are going to lose every time!

When I stopped worrying so much, I could cut down on my chase for perfection. I don’t know if those two things have anything to do with each other, or if it’s just open season for hunting down all inner demons. But I have been little reluctant to let the perfection-demon go. Not because I like to spend more time than necessary, making tings better than they have to be; but because letting go completely could result in me not even try to make the things almost perfect.

I know nothing is absolutely perfect. In fact, it is so hard to be perfect, that only two people in the whole wide world are practically perfect: Mary Poppins and a girl in Australia – and Mary Poppins isn’t even real.

Today I came to think of a way to put down the demon and still aim for perfection – and thereby not being disappointed when things don’t turn out to be perfect. You may already have realized the true nature of perfection long time ago, but sometimes I’m a little slow. I came to think that perfection is like the horizon: You can see it. You can try to walk towards it. But you can never reach it.

It’s the same with perfect happiness.

The point – I guess – is to aim for perfection and be happy each time you manage to take a step in that direction. You will never reach it, but if you know the way to go, you will never get lost.